追看ing日剧「正義の味方」。
=D

Without realizing, the group in friendster I created for my Beloved Gaara when I was Form 4 had increased its member to 800++ . lol this feels great. haha I din actually manage it at all. How powerfull is the sexiness of GAARA~!XDXDXDXD
Orz, I miss the days when I was a gaara-fanatic.=)
Gaara is HOT & SEXY with BLOOD & SANDS.=D
Even his academy number sounds sexy.lol 56-001.=D
Naruto has been going on for YEARS now. Isn’t the story going too long?-____- well,I still think I prefer mangaka keeps their work around 10 to 20 books. It’s definitely the most ideal length of story.People gets bored while they couldn’t meet the story ending,they tend to leave it aside.And I suppose good work would always still in the trend/ memorance even it’s completed for years.
Good mangas are hard to find nowadays…sigh

It yawns me off whn thinking that I still need to work in the hospital for another 4 months more.
I am actually living my life in fixed routine. Repeating the same thing everyday.
DYING for my course gets start earlier, I am readied to meet new people and learn new things. I don’t want to wait till the fire is OFF.-w-
I’m in a rush!=w=

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I feel, I have some regrets. I am not dealing with it in a right way.
I avoid. And run. And ignore. To skip. Or just lie it off.
I don’t even want to remember about it. But its farkin’ still lingering in my head.
REGRET. And really feels farkin’ disappointed of myself. confused. despise. hating myself.
I SUCK. I hope I can start everything all over again. mend it. getting back what I have lost, what is important to me.

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Feelings are very vulnerable, but still powerfull.
I tend to keep them deep inside my heart.
But as time passed by, I realized hiding all of em are is the stupid-est thing I have done all along.
That’s why no one had ever understood me.
I slowly learned to give it out after that, I gained a big family of great friends for the rest of my life.
Laughing together, weeping together, whining together..it’s nothing to be embarrassed about.
If you hate someone, tell, get open. You’ll feel better. And you will be friends one day, I gurantee you.lol
If you like someone,tell,let them know how much you care for them, before you regret for the rest of your life.
I told my friends how much I love them.I mean it.
I would even die for some of them,honestly.’w’;;;)haha
I am afraid that I will never have chance to let them know if I delay.






Devastated, some people wouldn’t understand how much I care for them even I’ve tried my best.I feel insecure this way…I just want them to know.

Sounds like im kinda nuts here.but I don’t think I’m lame anyway. nah~=)

Good nitez.

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Some shots I've found from net of the shop front of ABBEY DAWN in Japan.
ahhh!! wanna go in!Xd
Credits to whoever who posted it up.Thanks!=D
i went to KOHL'S on9 web for ABBEY DAWN. saw some which im pretty interested.
OHHOHO(ѰдѰ)⤴⤴⤴

ULTRA FAB DAY.LOL

this morning wake up,get ready,and went out straight to meet up with miao, ee lek, sai sai and mek mek~ at youth park.
we went to tke photo there by somekind of professional photographer(??)
the photographer is mek mek~'s sister's friend's father.lol
yea,far away relation.
neway,he offer to tke photo for us with some really good deal which we don hav to pay for all the work but onli to pay for the photo which is RM2 per piece.
sounds impossible,but finallly get to know why,coz the photographer is tryin to train his own son in photography.lol
well, the pictures,didnt turn out as good as we wanted,to be honest.but they r still great photos in some sense.lol and i wanted a farkin good camera as well...=__________= so cool.=___________=







(more photos to be up.=D)

neway,after the meet up,i went hme at around noon but din reli stay in hse for not even half an hour,went out wif my sis n my mum to pray my grandpa and grandma ,den to kedah road to look for a taylor to get the clothes we wanted.my sis wanted a mild-lolita-ish skirt she saw on net and i wanted an outfit like yumehito..lol
after that,we went to campbell road to look for shops that sell cloth.found one shop which is 99% occupied by the cloths,which i can hardly movearound.=___________= and its a 4-storey shop with all cloths and its like a maze inside,and there are even cloths along the stairs.swt
NARROW.
the tauke of the shop is very smart about evrting bout cloths and a realli rich man...well,all his cloths are all impoted from other countries.and he got TWO FARKING NICE ANTIQUE CARS.i forgot da name of the car, but it's definitely SUPERB.i tink he is the only one owning them in penang.=___________=



we came back hme at around 7 to have our dinner for around an hour and went out again to my 2nd mum's hse to visit her then to suan suan's hse to get yukata from her.suan suan realli is good in sewing nahhhhhhhhhh
I LOVE THE YUKATA.XD


then to sunshine farlim then to mcD.=D
n im hme 11stg pm.

oRZ,IM TIRED. BUT SUPERB HAPPY TODAY.

oh yea,nearly forgot,.i bought two new dresses todae.=D
which is quite rare for me.lol
last saturday bought a leopard outer.lol nice.=D

bought both of these:


almost bought this:


my mum bought this:

15/8/2008 Fri
went out with miao, osama, chien wei, yee lek, mek~mek~ ,sai sai.
well,it's mainly coz miao is gonna leave malaysia soon on nex sat/sun for US.
gahh y not bring me along?xD
we went to Sunrise pizza hut.
it was kinda shock tat i find osama is actually doing chef course in KDU now.
I never thought that she would go that line.lol
unexpected things happens alot.xD
im tinking maybe i shud find a fren from chef course sumday.
they might b able to offer me some free piece of sample of their works..
how great,darou?xD
LOL
well,there's ntg much to tok about that day.coz it's mostly about chitchats.
but stll memorable of cos.=D
bought a STITCH doll.xDcute....XD
I'm waiting sum1 to buy me a big cuddly teddy bear.x) anyone?xD
MIAO MIAO,Do bring back us the air,the soil,the sand,the snow and the spring water.lol
Another ting is,like what u have said,mayb u wont b comin back already,mayb for a vry rare of time, well, and about what we talked about last time, about going to new zealand to visit anna together, yea, IM SERIOUS ABOUT IT. but pls wait me keep my money first.=________=
lol
please Do feel great in ur new life in US.=)
n miss us as well.=)
P/S:u always complaint that i write my blog in mandarin.
im starting to use english now.satisfied?=D
hiao po sy i use weird language...=________=

YER,,I WANNA GO OVERSEAS AS WELL.TT

my leg still hurts like hell.

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Todae yj,lili,juju and ww came to the my workin place to meet me when my break time.
It was great to gather together again like we used to and juz plain chat.^^
Kinda miss them actually.HAHHAA
i felt so "lost soul" when working after they left,because they went gurney n hang out together while i have to continue working.TT
i wnna go~~TT
lol
It was a shock that i heard that asadi prince has found a gf.yea,vry surprising.n da girl is supposingly our clasmate.xD ,which we thought was quite impossible(??) xD

oh well,
yea,i bought my first new laptop.
dell XPS m1330 w/ specification of
processor : Intel(R) Core(TM)2 Duo CPU T5850 @ 2.16GHz 2.16GHz
Memory: 2.00GB
Operating system: Genuine Windows Vista® Home Premium
Monitor: 13.3” UltraSharp™ WXGA Display with TrueLife™ and 2.0MP integrated webcam
Hard Drive: 250GB* Hard Drive
Optical Drive: 8X DVD Burner*
Graphic Card128MB NVIDIA® GeForce® 8400M GS

bought at PC FAIR during saturday.i bought a midnite blue color,like juju did=____=
i wanted a black
but there is no stock==
i bought another 250GB external HD and a mouse.=D
i love the webcam honestly
hahaha


then during Sunday,i went to roller skating with yun yun and sum new friends.
I hurt my feet n my knee.TT
it's awfully pain.even now.TT
it's pain wen water touches it.
it's pain wen the wind blew at it.
it's pain wen nothing is done to it.TT
its so hard to shower and to slp wif tis stupid legs.LOL

however,this is also the day i got to know my result.
i was juz beginin to skate then i got the news that i got sum rellli bad result that i failed to get into the mech engineering course in taylor college.
it's so frustrating that it turned out like that when i did studied so hard or it.
i tink this time most ppl did slightly bad/vry bad than wad we expected to get.
probably it was because of the A2 papaer was set to kinda hard n pull down all d marks.
then there was sum arguing n lecturing,
well evrting ended up for me to change my course.
i got 85% of possibilty to go for architecture after lots of considerations.
still considering.
I nedd money.i need life.i need to b happi.

GOod luck to evryone though,to those friends that are retaking,those who are waiting for acceptance letter from uni,those who are still waiting for result,those that taking their exam,and those that going to meet STPM.and ME.

すみませんでした。
This is a disaster.
I wonder what’s the point of studying for an instance.
What’s the use when you did study, things end up the same exactly like when u didn’t.
Even when u gave all out that you could do,it end up the same.
And that effort seems to vanish together with the little spark of hope.
Efforts are not always being appreciated, by people,by destiny.
The fruit is the only ting that sparks and eats the light from sides.
In reality,things doesn’t go your way all the time, well for me, this aint the first time things go against me, but it happens all the time.
I don’t understand why things tend to work this way for me.
But I could only say that no matter how much I dissapointed others, the biggest disappointment is right in me.
The scolding, the eyes I see, the reaction I receive, means nothing at all.
I’m not going to give any excuse no more.
Because I know I did my best. And this is what get.
Something I don’t think I deserve.
I’m definitely not disappointed with myself this time,but destiny.
And feeling sorry for myself of not even given a chance to proove what I’ve actually given.
I felt numb, heartbroken inside.


From the bottom of my heart, I would love to say,

FUCK YOU!!!

つづきをよむ

Having problems dealing with beats...
How to determine the beats through the guitar tabs???
n honestly i realli do need to deal with music notes FIRST.-____-
was practising gazette's "guren".
somehow worked out a VERY VERY lil bit of uruha's part intro..but i still feel there's stg wrong bout it.==
maybe i shudn't go so fast.==
maybe i should go for cassis first,like what evryone suggested.-w-
lol

i think my amplifier got abit crazy...
how come...X(
or maybe it's just the wrong adjstment...
but i couldnt get the previous perfect overdriven sound back..
and sounds very "hall",somehow.
my gosh.DX